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Scattered thoughts...
Dec. 11th, 2005 08:01 pmI'm trying to avoid doing stuff that I should have finished a couple of days ago. I'm feeling terribly anxious right now. And as there's no ice cream nearby, I've decided to blog.
I told myself yesterday, that I'd try to wait and find something positive for my next entry. I mean being uncomfortable and then cynical can be a little off-putting. Hopefully after the thing I'm avoiding is finished, I can find something silly and fun to post about.
One thought - it's weird that this blog has a Robin Hood motif. There's the greenwood title. I've got my little Robin Hood icon. (It's a picture of a statue outside Nottingham Castle. And this very picture, with photo credit to me, now graces the cover of Thomas Ohlgren's 2nd edition of Medieval Outlaws: 12 Tales in Translation.) So, one might think this blog would be full of Robin Hoody goodness. And it's not.
The reason is that I run a Robin Hood website. It's http://www.boldoutlaw.com -- just in case anyone who doesn't know me surfs by this blog. You'll find more than you ever wanted to know about Robin Hood right there.
But to be honest, I've been getting a bit restless with the site. Robin Hood's always been an interest of mine -- a trickster hero is the perfect archetype for someone who is painfully shy and who procrastinates. And for years, I wanted to write Robin Hood fiction. But somewhere along the way, I started my website. And I've spent so much time on it -- devoting way too much energy for free. Yet I keep getting email from people who have used my site for one thing or another. I end up feeling a bit exploited. And a bit sad. And a bit of a joke.
One professor friend -- trying to be the very supportive and nice person that she truly is -- suggested that I make my site a for-profit site. That I make only a small portion to the general public, and that the rest be a subscription service to the university crowd.
It was a nice vote of confidence that she thought my site would be successful in such a format. But well... my site isn't only for a tiny minority of university-educated folks. I don't want it to be just for them.
I think some day ... sooner rather than later ... I'll be walking away from my site. I don't mean taking it down. But well, not stressing out writing articles for it all the time.
Before my site, I spent a lot of time working on fiction. Or trying to write articles for sale. Now, I don't. I've turned what should be my vocation into my hobby.
Hmmm.... I really need to stop updating this blog when I'm in less cheerful moods.
Allen
P.S.: Am I the only one who finds it odd that LiveJournal's spell checker doesn't know the word "blog"?
I told myself yesterday, that I'd try to wait and find something positive for my next entry. I mean being uncomfortable and then cynical can be a little off-putting. Hopefully after the thing I'm avoiding is finished, I can find something silly and fun to post about.
One thought - it's weird that this blog has a Robin Hood motif. There's the greenwood title. I've got my little Robin Hood icon. (It's a picture of a statue outside Nottingham Castle. And this very picture, with photo credit to me, now graces the cover of Thomas Ohlgren's 2nd edition of Medieval Outlaws: 12 Tales in Translation.) So, one might think this blog would be full of Robin Hoody goodness. And it's not.
The reason is that I run a Robin Hood website. It's http://www.boldoutlaw.com -- just in case anyone who doesn't know me surfs by this blog. You'll find more than you ever wanted to know about Robin Hood right there.
But to be honest, I've been getting a bit restless with the site. Robin Hood's always been an interest of mine -- a trickster hero is the perfect archetype for someone who is painfully shy and who procrastinates. And for years, I wanted to write Robin Hood fiction. But somewhere along the way, I started my website. And I've spent so much time on it -- devoting way too much energy for free. Yet I keep getting email from people who have used my site for one thing or another. I end up feeling a bit exploited. And a bit sad. And a bit of a joke.
One professor friend -- trying to be the very supportive and nice person that she truly is -- suggested that I make my site a for-profit site. That I make only a small portion to the general public, and that the rest be a subscription service to the university crowd.
It was a nice vote of confidence that she thought my site would be successful in such a format. But well... my site isn't only for a tiny minority of university-educated folks. I don't want it to be just for them.
I think some day ... sooner rather than later ... I'll be walking away from my site. I don't mean taking it down. But well, not stressing out writing articles for it all the time.
Before my site, I spent a lot of time working on fiction. Or trying to write articles for sale. Now, I don't. I've turned what should be my vocation into my hobby.
Hmmm.... I really need to stop updating this blog when I'm in less cheerful moods.
Allen
P.S.: Am I the only one who finds it odd that LiveJournal's spell checker doesn't know the word "blog"?
